Aaron Pa'akaula

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lol today I was abandoned in the dorm room because I forgot we had an activity, where everyone shared their deepest secrets with each other. While they were doing that I was writing a research paper about euthanasia, while also reading a book called philosophy of death. It was dead silent and I was sitting on my bed by myself. Purgatory! Black Darkness!

I know I might be taking advantage of my mom right now and using her for my own selfish benefits, but is it really?? I just got back to school from being sick for the past five days. I went to the emergency twice in that period of time and it’s been hell. So coming back to UH for COP I still feel unwell and I wanted to go back home. I’m not going to die and it’s not urgent that I want to go home but right now I feel kinda of uncomfortable being around so much people. I have to take pills to control my nausea still and it’s still hard for me to eat some of the stuff that’s in the cafeteria so I asked my mom if she could pick me up or drop off some soup. My dad, sister, and grandma advise my mom not to as if I would get used to be treated as a brat. If they knew me any better they would know that I wouldn’t want them to waste that gas but as I sit here in my dorm alone nauseated I just want someone I love to comfort me, give me advice, or even Godly council. Call it selfish stupid or just a waste that could spoil the rest of my time here at COP but I call it a cry for help when I feel like I need it.

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